Diary Entry 4:
This entry was written : 12/10/25
Dear Diary,
Post work. Damn I really pushed myself, and I have to keep pushing.
I have to. 144
Everything I feel like I do next is riding on these moments , What choices I make How I treat others, I want to make sure I’m doing what’s right in my heart and what’s right for the sake of humanity. Perhaps I needn’t be so dire, But that’s how I feel I can make a difference. so my Choices are important, because I want change in the best of ways.
I want change for what’s best For whats kind , for what is gentle , I choose to give kindness not because anyone deserves it, but because it is the right thing to do. Perhaps my tongue doesn’t come off that way ,
Today at work I watched,
this woman touched the crown of her coworkers head , as she looked at me in the eye . staring at me drunk and smug.
I was uncomfortable.
The person just sat there with this woman’s hand , saying it’s okay.
The other people saying it’s okay.
That she does this all the time and it’s really okay.
And the woman staring somewhat defiant at me, as if testing me.
And I just stared at the person…. I just looked at her,
And her discomfort, And I wondered why she let it get so far.
…. These people were very disrespectful towards their coworkers.
A team of six , a Hispanic woman, a white ginger man , an Asian man , 2 black women , 1 black man . The Hispanic woman was already drunk as they sat. Her mauve pants suit wasn’t doing her justice against the starkness of her black hair.
The Asian man might’ve also been Hispanic …As he and the ginger were drunk. As I continue to observe their relationships , how they speak to their coworkers. Their conversation just became more perverse.
They openly mocked their black colleagues and their colleagues just sat there.
letting them berate them .
Letting them disrespect them.
Letting them .
The Hispanic woman began to speak in an accent, perhaps her version of AAVE. The Asian man just kept making sex jokes and the ginger man was 25% brain functioning when he stumbled in. Just babbling .
They say when you’re drunk the truth comes out.
In the end it’s the same old story , the one of the slave and its master. I’m writing as a Haitian American myself. So chill.
I don’t understand why society literally targets black people so much. like I really don’t get it, I was born a martyr.
stuck in an existence trying to prove to the viewers that I am one of the good ones.
Why has my existence of being of african decent been so disgusted by others?
Why has my life been condemned since i was born?
What people never want to recognize is that there were civilizations that existed before America. Not just Greece and Rome , but also in the many different nations in Africa.
Why is this disconnected??? Why do the history books make it seem like Europe was the only country on the fucking planet ????
You fucking think that there wasn’t anything going on in Africa in 1502? *plz read this like an angry new yorker its so fuuny* Like they didn’t have their own shit going on?
Real Tea: Black people were always on the planet.
We didn’t just appear out of nowhere and lived in huts , wtf.
Society has made it seem like Europe invented civilization and discovered the rest of the world , and thus spread “progress “ in humanity ??? Society has make it seem like Africa only exists once slavery starts!
>>>>>>>>>You have the choice to end your reading now or… Read this chat gpt wormhole with me? <<<<<<<<<<<
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Why are we never shown Africa’s scientific history • pre-colonial trade networks • African philosophy • African architecture • African kingdoms •
Black inventors pre-enslavement ??? ???????????????? do you see why so much shit is so FUCKED UP ???? Our ancestors were attacked, violently violated, taken from their homes , their mothers, their fathers. Their school Their livelihood.
Chat gpt: 1. Where were enslaved Africans taken from? Not from one place — from entire regions, mostly West and Central Africa. The main areas were: West Africa • Senegambia (Senegal, Gambia) • Sierra Leone • Gold Coast (Ghana) • Bight of Benin (Togo, Benin, Nigeria) • Bight of Biafra (Nigeria, Cameroon) Central Africa • Kongo Kingdom (Angola, DR Congo) • West Central Africa (Angola in particular was a MAJOR departure point) East Africa (later on) • Mozambique, Madagascar These weren’t “tribes in huts.” These were organized societies, some with armies, kings, officials, taxes, diplomacy, trade routes, and long histories. ⸻ 2. Did the slave trade lead to these civilizations collapsing? YES — absolutely. The trans-Atlantic slave trade destabilized, weakened, or outright destroyed several African states. Examples: Kingdom of Kongo (Central Africa) • Initially cooperated diplomatically with Portugal in the late 1400s • But Portuguese traders quickly ignored agreements • They kidnapped people, fueled internal rivalries, supported coups • This triggered civil wars that lasted 200+ years • By the 1600s, the kingdom was shattered • Millions were enslaved from this region West African Kingdoms • Some states (like Dahomey) got dragged into the trade because their neighbors started selling people • Wars were encouraged by Europeans because they profited from captives • This created a cycle of constant conflict • Regions depopulated, economies collapsed Songhai Empire (Mali/Niger) • Was one of the largest empires in Africa • Fell in 1591 after a Moroccan invasion • The damage + the rise of slave-trade coastal economies caused fragmentation Coastal destabilization • Europeans didn’t conquer Africa at this point — they corrupted it from the outside • They armed certain factions • Encouraged raiding • Bought prisoners of war, debtors, and kidnapped civilians • Turned political tensions into permanent war zones The slave trade didn’t start because Africa was weak — Africa was weakened BECAUSE of the slave trade. ⸻ 3. Did Africans record warnings? Did anyone try to stop it? YES. Africans absolutely left warnings, letters, treaties, protests, and written records. But those get ignored in Western education. (1) The King of Kongo literally begged Portugal to stop. King Afonso I (1500s) wrote multiple letters saying: • Portuguese traders were kidnapping free people • The population was disappearing • His officials were being bribed • His kingdom was collapsing • He needed the slave trade to end He said explicitly: “Our country is being depopulated.” Portugal ignored him. (2) African rulers tried to regulate or limit the trade. Examples: • Kingdom of Benin stopped selling slaves for long periods • Several West African states banned the sale of their own citizens • Some created laws barring Europeans from inland travel Europeans responded by: • bypassing rulers • arming rival factions • kidnapping directly (3) Religious leaders in Africa warned of moral, political, and spiritual collapse. Especially in Senegambia and Kongo, priests recorded: • prophecies of ruin • warnings that the trade would bring “fire” to the land • records of chaos, depopulation, and mourning These still exist in oral histories and manuscripts. (4) African scholars in Timbuktu wrote about the chaos on the coasts. Manuscripts from the 1500s–1600s mention: • rising violence • loss of stability in West African trade networks • disruptions caused by Europeans at the coast ⸻ 4. So were African kingdoms warning each other? In a way, yes — but not like a big conference. Communication happened through: • traders • diplomats • griots (oral historians) • letters • regional alliances But here’s the painful part: Some states tried to warn others, some tried to stop it, some got corrupted by it, and some got destroyed before the warning could spread. No monolithic “Africa united” existed — just like Europe wasn’t united. Different kingdoms had different priorities and threats. Europe took advantage of that. ⸻ 5. Why it wasn’t recorded as one big “warning” Because: • Africa had hundreds of ethnic groups, languages, governments • They weren’t all in direct alliance with each other • Europeans created chaos fast • Population loss was immediate and massive • Some kingdoms didn’t understand the scale until too late • Europe operated through manipulation, guns, and divide-and-conquer But don’t get it twisted: Africans were not naïve, passive, or unaware. They fought back, resisted, wrote letters, protested, and strategized. Whoaaa.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>If you skipped to this point, thank you for reading. another part of my truest identiy is forming<<<<<<<<<<
