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Dear Diary,
I did it again. I changed my life so hard, did a 180 and everything is so different. Ima a corporate finance diva now omg. She’s following her dreams AND building a solid career??
Who is she??
Thats the thing, I hate to be the same person I was. I refuse to stay in the same place that people have put me in. I will be different, the urge to transform is so great within me.
This human existence is so odd.
I’m at the point in my life where I genuinely don’t care. I don’t care what people think. I don’t care what they want. I just simply do not have the capacity to hold space for people who diss me to my face and pretend they like me in front of others.
It’s so odd. If you don’t like me just be honest with yourself about that and move on. Don’t engage with me just because i’m a hot topic. Ima stay relevant, hoe.
My main challenge is to be present. Present with myself. Present with my actions. To be choosy with my time. I have things to create that steel prod me in the mental.
I’ve got a whole new routine now, I’ve got to create within that. Idk it’s something I wanna pat myself on the back for. There’s a concept of life that I’ve begun to grasp that is becoming ever more present as time moves forward.
I am here. I am here now. This summer genuinely almost killed me. I’ve now experienced too many near death experiences for me to not play about my life.
again. To re-emphasize. I AM HERE. I am ALIVE.
What a gift in the simplicity of breathing and sitting here to write. So, I say that to make it clear to my dearest readers, that I'm gonna stay here. I’m building towards a future I can see when I dream at night.
I’m building. I’m stacking. I’m making sure that I’m good first. I spent too much of my life trying to make sure that everyone was good before me and I was burnt to a crisp because of it.
So cheers to me, I’m not fucking dead. I’m looking forward to getting older and being rich as fuck.
Now, I’m excited to wake up in the morning and be in that 7am traffic. Because I know that drive is one day closer to me hitting my goals.
I don’t care about a romantic relationship and I don’t give a fuck about having kids.
My life purpose is to be rich and wealthy as fuck, having fun with my besties, creating beautiful art work and giving back to the world in ways that feel sacred and divine to me.
Sorry to my past self, for not recognizing the value of my aging self. I hate that I haven’t been able to use my left hand , and that I’ve been limping most of the summer.
I’m just glad that i’ve been healing. Doc said I can go back to the gym, that I can train and strengthen myself.
All to be better, for myself. Not for anyone else.
This life of mine is for me, I’m damn sure gonna be selfish with me.
xoxo your local diva
alive and fucking well
