A Letter to Love

A letter to love,

I knew you once,

There was a falseness in the others that were sent

I recognize where I went wrong,

Chasing, nitpicking, crashing and burning,

And burning to dust

I’m so sorry Love,

I didn’t see how you were calm ,

I didn’t see where you did show up for me,

I didn’t see my own insecurities,

Not sure if what you showed me was real ,

I just needed clarity,

But you just need for me to trust how I feel,

At times you left me,

There was silence,

I felt cold ,

I didn’t understand that you gave me all the warmth you had ,

But Love,

I needed to learn ,

That I needed that conscious communication,

That your distance gave me anxiety,

That I required a solid choice.

Do you choose me ?

Not the body, not the face

Not the things I can do

But my Soul,

My fate,

The things I can’t control ,

The winds of change ,

Were you willing to stand by me,

Stand for me,

Rise with me,

Fly with me.

Because no matter how much pain,

I still choose you,

I still choose all the versions of you,

I choose to stay steady,

You picked up the phone

I answered the call ,

Every

Time.

To Love,

For I mistreat you and you return to me relentless,

Reminding me that I am always worthy of you

Slow kissing the scars on all the darkest parts of me,

I am illuminated.

To Love,

Choosing you, means choosing myself,

Choosing to stand with all those versions,

The ones that died in sickness ,

And the ones that lived for health ,

To Love,

I vow to show up for you everyday,

Trust that I shift to hold the parts of me forward,

I just have to have faith that you will do the same.